Well people Ill admit
I dident have the greatest year,but the end of it was awesome
well actuly the last few days,up from last sunday made it great
I didn't expect anything good enough to happen to let me forgett the shit that happened the entire year XD
well
anyways
yeah...Im feelin good
and I wish all of you
Merry Christmas,get a lot of presents people !
and if I dont come on survive to upload pics of me shooting rockets from my Fenn Shysa cosplay jetpack,
and a happy new year

well I cosplayed
A'Sharad Hett on the fantasy days 09 in düsseldorf
a large 3 day con with live bands,performances german garrison(501 st) legion visits,lightsaber exhibitation and who knows what,oh and over priced soda and low prices on rare stuff,so its comperable with a US con.

SO WHY A'SHARAD IN MY PICS WEARS BLACK BOOTS AND GLOVES:
ANSWERE:
In the comic "Last battle for Jabiim" in the end,when Anakin tries to save a dying Jedi lady and fails,A'Sharad brought him to a memorial thingy for Jedi,you clearly see he wears black boots.
now why the gloves ?
I couldent get brown leather gloves in time,and since my boots were black,it would fit better.

I hope these things at least are a bit entertaining and my sarcastic komments at least put a smile on my dear readers face,yes(no sarcasm) I want you to smile about my horrible life !
If I cant be amused,at least other people should be and since due to my comments some people wet themselvs of laughter I hope I can alsow put it in here,I hope I can make it sound funny in english as well,remember Im a german ...NO dont even think about showing me a Sieg Heil,and if you do,wear the nice boots ok ?

SO Halloween ! my favourit day of the year is over .
and me being a real slow week starter,only am able to report today.
so
I happen to magicaly attract lesbians,so I got this lesbian friend who always has problems finding someone so I saied
"Well why dont you join me and while I look for a friend(female) youll end up dating her ,huh ? sound good ?"

yes so seemingly no matter if I want to date the person or am simply attached to her,she turns lesbian.
I mean,she looked a lot like the person who gave me a necklace almost 1 year ago,and Im "mortaly wounded" cuz one of my ex girlfriends stole it,so I told her,and the new lesbo saied(only good thing about the entire day) "Well if I were your friend who gave it to you,I wouldent be mad,if it gets stolen you cant do much about it,and Id be shocked that your so depressed cuz of it."
so Im happy about that.
well
next:
Halloween I finaly became Joker again after like I dunno 5 months ?
well,so,I asked a buddy "How is it that Im me again ?"
-"Epic." LOL XD!
so after halloween,I watched the "This is it" movie,I like it specialy how he changed the song "The way you make me feel"
so Monday
school with "MS.Pussy"* Biology....god..I hate classes with her
she saied,Ok 1 hour from the test,so why dont you and Pascal*(Snake)
practice
me:"We did" (was in a bad mood,I ended up leaving school due to stomach problems...)
and she"Well I want you to have a B in the test !"
Me being a sarcastic asshole once again startet laughing
"Yeah and next you want me to make peace negotiations with Fidel Castro huh ?"
Pascal burstet into laughing
and I poked him and saied:"So were flying to cuba tommorow ! and Thusday we start talking to Kim Il Jong ?"
So me and Pascal will be making peace all over the world now huh ?
but even better
Ms.Pussy:"Get the stuff into your head !"
And I took the paper sheet about the topic and startet stuffing it into my ear then my mouth,"Sorry..cant...I just cant get it in."
well...yeah...not funny `? I dont give a shit,..not realy.


IM not being ignored,Im not even being noticed,the only reason my teachers notic me is due to the list of students...
I great someone,he dosent even ignore me they simply..its as if Im air !
so I could either run around in school in a cosplay,no one would notice.or Naked,...ok the would notice the last one.
ok seriously,If I would run around in school as tusken raider yell like one and start clubbing peoples skulls open with a gaffi stick I doubt theyd notice...
but it got its good sides ..I guess (?)

*MS.Pussy /Frau Posner,all of school hates her..good she is such a kill joy,and was scared shitles by the prolog of twilight...what a puss...

*PAscal /Snake:
the only one that notices my exsistance...not to often but hey..at least...and hey hes a Solid SNake cosplayer


OH AND EVEN BETTER!!!!!
Im good at being relationship Doctor,belive me !
but people ask other people
like Tobi,whos girlfriend cheats on him like very 10 sekonds,he sayes:"Ill let her in the unknown during the weekend and on monday Ill dump her for that"
well fuck it whimp,monday:"OH IM SO IN LOVE I FORGIVE HER WE CAN MAKE IT!" yeah shure buddy,and later on your kids look like your buddys from work or your neighbour but not you.*sigh*
or Pascal he keeps asking tobi,I told him what I would think is wise.
but he saied "but your changing your relationships faster than your underwear !" if that where the case I would never change my girlfriend -.-
oh ,and short explanations,your good at giving tipps if its not your own troble,ever noticed it ?
anyhows and later on they come to me,crying or whatsoever,total pissed and yell
"WHY DIDENT YOU TELL ME /HELP ME" the usual stuff...god Im so sick of this shit.......

Well a little distraction from the normal average apocalypse called life,is the big convention "Comic-Action"if you never heared of it you US cosplayers,its a german con,a little bit like the san diego comic con.(I envy you US cosplayers....)
anyways,so Ill be cosplaying Galen Marek in his Jedi Adventure robes
I was thinking about either doing his Ceremonial Jedi robes,or the sith Robes,but for some reason I took materials for the both and am making the advnture robes,so me being stupid again I just hope it wont end up looking crapy...
ANYWAYS,
so Ill have to repair my lightsaber emitter.(afterall its just cardbord)

well and I feel like Palpatine in the robot chicken Star wars parody...
Im bringing Pascal a good buddy of mine along...GOD IN HEAVEN THAT NUTLESS WHAT EVER HE IS CALLED !!! WTF ?!!?
I for gods sake,his girlfriend broke up with him,so I toght get him to other toughts,he loves metal gear,and there is a lot of rare metal gear merchandise there,so I tought,well hes depressed wants to kill himself
and unlike me,hes not not doing it cuz he dosent think like me
"1.39$ for a bullet and OMFG 50$ for a shotgun ?! no way,to exspensive Ill stay alive then !"
he dosent think that way...shit..
anyways,so the con is like I dunno 2 hours from my place,and Ill give him a ticket for th train,since he dosent have one,
anyways,to get the point,
we got the offer to sleep at a buddys,hes like only 30 min away
but pascal dosent get it that the con is like until 20 and were gonna be awake since 9,ride the train half of the day,do a lot of shit on the con,he seriously wants to have a sleep over at my place,and WTF !?! that freacking moron -.-

AND people always wonder why I always rant,am never in a good mood,well cuz fucking never anything happens to make my life better -.-

UPDATE
why I feel like palpatine ?
well easy,
Pascal is the Darth Vader robot chicken edition -.-
hes such a fucking "dickkopf"
its like the moment where the emperor says
"STOP RAMMING THE FUCKING FLEET INTO THE FUCKING ASTEROID FIELDS YOU FUCK!!!"
or
at the barber
"Just saying his name makes my day shity"
"NO VADER I CANT HOLD YOUR HAND ANYMORE!!"
or the best of all the most accurate to now
:"Sometimes I just want to lay in a hot bath and cry."
its so fucking frustriting to talk to him !
for gods sake you say :"no.."
Ill give you his email,his phone nummber,you try and cry.
well anyways,
to make it worse he used to be my best friend,
but I introduced him to his nor ex girlfriend,
he used to have the emotinal world of a tee spoon,
but he tryed so hard to be "theatralisch" BUT FUCK HE CANT FUKCING BE THAT WAY ITS NOT NATURAL ITS LIKE AN ORANGE CHRISTMAS TREE!!!!
he tried so fucking hard to be an emotional person becouse he tought thats what his girlfirend likes WRONG ! she fucking fell in love with him cuz he was the way he was,but him being an emotional bitch now that crays about everything..lets be frank,nobody likes that,and that "über softie" dosent get it even says stuff like
"Der letze funkle glüht noch in mir" WTF !?!? YOUR NOT IN BRIDGET JONES OR TWILIGHT ASSHOLE WAKE UP THIS IS THE REAL CRUEL WORLD!!!
so instead of him continuing turning himself into Edward from twilight,just wihtouth the looks,he should fuckin grow a pair of nuts and become that psychopth everyone loved !!! FUCK!!!

Everything else goes fine,just my love life is a pile of shit...
I mean why ? Seriously,WTF ?!
ok lets settle
12 girls went lesbian on me during the relationship,in a row,whats wrong with me ?should I work for Catholic church ?
"Hey I can change your kids sexuality,let he/she/it go out on a date with me and :TA DA!"

FUCK....
well then I had one who commited suicide,great huh ?...

then 1 girl,everything was perfect,I turned out to be the affair !
fuck...

ühhhhhhhh
Then I had a Masochistic Psychopth who left me 12 scars..GREAT!
then I had another psychopath,a controll freack,left 6 scars....
then I had a total weird girl,who claimed she wouldent turn out a controll freack,and you know what ? her boyfiend is the inventor of a german chat room,he tought I stole her from him,so he fucks my internet life and hacked into 50% of all my internet acounts and deleted them,and then saied I was some sort of sexuall whatsoever,and well my reputation in 2 citys in germany is ruined ^^
FUCKING SHITFACED ASSHOLE!


NEXT
yeah hell isent over for me yet XD!

I had something going with a few other girls,but all turned me down after kissing around with me or making false hopes for me,I mean WTF ?!am I such a bad kisser that once I kiss its like "eww,no way not this guy!" WTF ?!!?!?!

so complete damage toll:
12 lesbians,Im mentaly cracked up,
1 suicider : scared for life
1 masochist,/12 scars: Im insable
1 Controll freack extremo,/6 scars: Im a ticking time bomb

1 bitch who brought this fuck tard into my life: Im so gonna be a serial killer in my 30s....

being turned down all the time and being under false hopes before,
god why dont you get me to join you up there ? oh yeah right
Acording to 99% of earth Ill be with Hitler in hell,great....


but at least one song chears me up
"God thinks"
" God is neither good nore bad,God is you and me,god is everything"
I lol to death at that line
and by the way,I feel rejected by the good side of life -.-
fuck...at least bad people in star wars when there evil can do awesome force lightnings,but sadly this is shity real world,so all I can do is put a "mask" on and say "FUCK IT NEVERMIND;ITS OK,IM OK !!"